Prototypes!!!

Sequential to the post I  reblogged on here days back “Mine” It took me to the house of pain’

My chest was literally heavy from reading the  pain laced post, it was heartfelt, it took me to the  place, the crime scene-(the break in that is).

I probably felt so much pain while reading ’cause i had been there a couple of times, in fact, i just got back from a trip down there. I usually write about such trips in my journal, but this particular one, i just have not summoned the strength or courage to write about it,i probably will never do.Just in case you don’t know the post i am talking about click here.

The beautiful night of the tragedy, I cried so hard, I didn’t want to wake up the next day. I wanted to be sleeping beauty by all means!  At that very moment I was weak, I lost all courage or strength to face the world, I wanted to sleep till eternity.  I didn’t think it would happen, at least not that day, not that year, not ever! Our world was overflowing with Love. Maybe I subconsciously blocked my pipe shrugs. I ponder about these things, when did I get it wrong? How did I get it wrong? Didn’t I give it my best shot? I must have been a horrible person?  To be honest, I don’t think the love died, the relationship ended which hurt and still does- Love is never enough, this particular trip taught me this.  So why did it end? I was such a hopeless romantic, thinking love conquers all. It does conquer, but just half of the city. Well, we learn everyday and experience is the best tutor. But then again, I may be just wrong because with these folks, you just don’t get it.

They are very full of surprises,we all are anyways. No!!! I didn’t expect this particular surprise. He was soo soo good, the most amazing on earth, he was different. One of my problems maybe, just maybe I trusted a little too much,left my heart unguarded, unprepared for the unknown. With these folks, you never know what to expect, never!

Ohh! He got very bored maybe. Sigh! I give up! Till date, I cannot seem to comprehend reasons why you broke in. I choose not to believe the inference/pointer of  subsequent events.

I have heard too many stories of girlfriends transition from the only one in the world to complete strangers! Like how do these things happen? Are they enchanted?

In all the times I had been in such a  situation; I had never felt like quitting, I always got back on track like the next day. This particular one made me feel like the race was not worth it no more; enough about emphasizing about the sad ordeal. This is like 0ne-tenth of the slice of the pain sef, okay! I end it here.

But as a hopeless optimist that I am,mama got back bouncing!  Although it took me a little longer than normal to return to my original state, better state sef, thanks to Almighty God my insurer. He prescribed the best therapy I have ever used, I must mention.

So what brought me here today- the post I read the other day, my heart truly went out to the writer. Okay, so maybe the writer did not go through that horrible pain, let’s just assume she went through that pain. ‘Cause damn!she must have gone through or been there in her mind to put it down like that.

My word for you baby girl is, THEY ARE PROTOTYPES! Thesaurus describes a prototype as a trial product.  So this phrase just popped up in my head, as usual, you know how my mind travels na! But it does make sense to me, i hope it does to you.

Prototypes of products are not exactly bad; they just may not have all the features of the main model to be released. They are usually  the compromise of the final product, analysts usually learn from their models,improve on them and  the improved and final version is what enjoy.

So not all ‘them’ prototype boys are bad,no need to kill no one.The relationship was just not meant to last. What you do is grab your lesson and move on.

I have heard so many descriptions of these men- hunters, devourers, demons bla bla but I choose to call them prototypes well except for the future “him” ” *battslashes. God bless him wherever he is right now  🙂

You know how you are served with appetizer, then the main course? You know how babies take cute little steps, fall, and stand and learn to take giant strides? You know how soldiers train so hard, for the war? You should see that relationship that didn’t turn out as planned as the warm-up exercise, as the one preparing you for the future. You just gathering  experience for your start-up.

Your man is on his way, no need to fret or kill yourself, while you wait for the release of your model , your main dish, explore other areas of your life, tap into unutilized resources. It all will be worth it in the end, if it isn’t beautiful, it isn’t the end .

I know my male folks may  have gone through the same hole, you might be going through it. Well, she was/is a prototype.

Romans 8:18- for I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with glory which shall be revealed to us

You should check out this blogpost that I wrote three years after, it is somewhat related- Check it out