Prior to my close relationship with Jesus, anger was one of the traits associated with my life. I was somewhat quick to anger. But as I got closer to Jesus, He began to help me see differently and I realized that my quick anger wasn’t there anymore and I began to process frictions differently. This has become one of my many testimonies of living my new life with Jesus Christ.
But to my uttermost surprise, on Wednesday, 23rd of June I felt anger rushing out from my inside like a fountain. I was so stirred up in anger that I literally was going to delete a project I have been working on with a team for the past 9 months. It took the power of God and reminder to myself not to act out of anger to refrain me from acting on my anger. The trigger of my anger was something pretty minute that I have had to deal with in the past but for some inexplicable reasons, I was triggered.
Unfortunately for me, the day continued with a news that further triggered me. I was literally livid!!! I did not like that I was so angry but I couldn’t help but think about the incident from the morning coupled with the news I heard. And the more I thought about these things, the more the anger bubbled up inside of me.
I had not felt this way in a very long time, I must say again. Yes, things happen that get on my nerves, I just was never fired up the way I was on this Wednesday.
Reluctantly I went to church that evening, as I walked the nine minutes walk to church, I thought through the day’s activities with one pertinent question on my mine-“Why was I fuming up so bad?” “Did my bad temper return?”. Then I remembered that I had watched something last night that may have given anger access into my spirit.
My eyes are gates into my spirit & life: The previous night, I had stumbled on clips of a reality tv show on YouTube. The video had many of the participants reacting out of anger, cursing at one another almost through out the entire show and I had my eyes glued to it. I thought to myself, I probably should not watch this again but when I got home from church, it popped up again on my recommended watch. I decided to peep into the tv show, I ended up watching the whole thing. And by the end of day the next day, I was fuming and raging from the inside.
Last week, I was reminded of how important it is to guard my eyes and the other gates into my life. The things I read, watch, listen to gradually shapes the cause of my life.
More so, spirits are always roaming the earth in search of bodies to live in, they gain access into people’s lives through our gates – eyes, ears, tongue, sex and so on. Evidently on that tv show the spirit of anger had the upper hand on there. And somehow, watching the show, gave it access into my life again.
Anger Has the Ability to Destroy Valuable & Tangible Things: I still cannot believe I was so angry, I was going to delete that project. Something a group of us have been sacrificing for and looking forward to results, I really was going to destroy it. I do not think I will ever forget the date and my anger episode because that day we got a documentation we had been praying for. Imagine if I had deleted the project!
Do not ever Act Out of Anger: Thank God for self-control and the grace of God, I would have acted out of meaningless anger. A reminder yet again for me, never to speak or act out of anger. Words said in anger is never redeemable and it has the ability to break or destroy to the uttermost. Moses’ anger cost him the promise land that he had toiled and prayed about for many years.
Prayer conquers Anger Always: On that Wednesday night, after I had prayed my heart out particularly not about the way I felt. I felt God’s peace yet again settle into my soul, it was evident that there was a difference. Only for me to get home that day to watch the show again and wake up the next morning back to the very beginning of my rage.
Without a doubt, I knew I had to protect my eyes, hears in order to have and enjoy the calmness and peace of my Jesus.