So the other week I started off struggling with feeling all drained, like really tired, then angry, then sad. Like a mixture of all the wrong feelings, it was beginning to take a toll on how I was relating with people. I was rather inefficient, unproductive; I was pretty low on energy. I was a lot more curled up than I usually would be, I was snapping too easily.
Oh! Well…. I decided not to stay that way, I needed to refuel, come alive again. I realized the little things I was doing, the efforts I was making towards being happy, got my bones fired up a bit. Then I could go on for a few hours and then back to my tired self. I’d like to breeze you through my week, allow me please 😊
Happiness Is a source of strength I realize.
I did a couple of research (googled everything and anything) – The internet is the most amazing thing after ice-cream😊. I mean I can say I made research from my desk. Give me a bowl of ice-cream and internet to unwind, I would be just fine. Just fine!
I typed in things I wanted to read about, things that appeal to me, things I thought would uplift my spirit in the search engine and I found a couple of things that made me happy.. these are a few
- I learnt about a movie to be released January 2018- Forever My girl. Something to look forward to, just my kind of movie. The story line gave me life at that moment, I love love stories😊
- Yes! Joyce Meyer’s Ministries 3030 challenge. I hope to go all the way till the 30th day. You can join on here
- I found out about this devotional by Sarah Young-Jesus Calling, this is something I absolutely look forward to utilizing in 2018.
- Read a few stories on how some Christians found God and a couple of other stuff I found interesting
Skimmed through the word– When I get really desperate or exasperated or the way I was feeling, I just pick up the bible to read something, anything. Skimming through it bursts my head; it gives me life, having different versions of the bible makes it even better. Well I did this like every day.
Gifted Myself– 😁I bought myself a women’s devotional bible. It is so purply, the most beautiful thing I have gotten myself this month, if not the whole year sef. Like I was so excited when It was delivered. It looks absolutely yummy; I just want to eat it .
I look forward to spending a lot of time with my bible, like! It is so attractive; I can’t get my hands of it.
The picture doesn’t do it so much justice though.
I took a break- The symptoms still persisted, so I decided to take a day off work to just sleep. Hopefully I’d feel a lot better. But strangely, the more I slept, the more tired I felt. Eventually I decided to do some cleaning. I did the kitchen, and then came to my room. I felt a lot better and I found a Karen Kingsbury book I have had for awhile now and I haven’t read. I spent the rest of the day with my long lost book,still on it though.
Fresh of breathe air-I decided to see a movie with my friend from school. I had not seen her since last year. She is really young and she speaks with so much wisdom, she is a brilliant young baby girl. I met up with her at her friend’s place. Plans changed sha, so I had to meet up with her at her friend’s.
Her friend is as young as she I and married. Like these kids just finished from the university year.
I was a lot of curious, so of course asked her questions. LOOOL! I am shameless like that and I can ask questions for the world. The baby girl is such a sweet, brilliant baby girl. We had a conversation; it was not an interview session like it started off as.
Oh! Lord! I was so happy to hear from her, to hear about how she has grown in faith, how God is at the centre of her marriage. How she prayed and got confirmation from God about her marriage. Like! What, what did I know when I was her age *hottears.
It was just so so refreshing to hear young people speak so intelligently, I pray many of them emerge in our generation.
I listened. My ride home from my friend’s place was super cozy. I enter into the car and the chauffeur starts to blast really nice tunes, like really nice tunes, it felt really nice. Driving on the bridge; the view of the sea to behold,with reflections of the street lights and Christmas decorations. I had to ask him about his collections, then I asked about his church, then I asked about work.
Yeah! Once I start off with my questions, it just goes on and on… I really cannot remember the next set of questions I asked though but this guy got to the point he told me about his failed marriage, how he is pulling through… He went on and on as the ride continued. At this point all I did was really listen to him, he really thanked me after the trip. I did nothing but listen.
My boss said, the most selfish thing anyone can do is to help somebody. The feeling you get (satisfaction, fulfillment) right after you just helped somebody is indescribable. I felt that way after this particular trip.
You do not have to give money or material stuff to people in need, it could be your time or just your listening hears sef.
My list above are things I did to satisfy my flesh, more like temporary energizers. It is necessary to do things differently, break out of your routine, do things to make yourself happy.
But then in as much as fueling the body is good, fueling the spirit man is expedient. Allow me say again; every individual has a spirit living inside a body with a soul. These parts of the bodies need to be fueled often. The spirit needs it daily; it needs to be fed daily, it is the core of your being.
I mentioned earlier that I skimmed through the bible. I so know this is not enough, I need to spend quality time studying God’s breathed word. It really does give life, God’s word created the whole world and everything beautiful in it; it gave the earth life. God’s word sprung dry bones- like really dead bones to life~ Ezekiel 37:1-8
If skimming through the word could give me so much life, then diving into it is the way.
Prayer is retreat in the season of exhaustion~unknown
Prayer is an intercourse with God; this is the opportunity to pour out just how you feel to God, then He breathes on/ in you.
I learnt in a course I took on prayer, “Only in prayer, do you become much in God”. When one spends a lot of time in the place of prayer which is God’s presence, communing with Him. It would only be a matter of time, you’d start “oozing” certain traits of God like strength, beauty, power to heal the sick …..
I prayed to God everyday this last week for renewal of strength,He answered. But of course, I can only get better by spending more time in the place of prayer.
In conclusion, I think it is unavoidable to feel exhaustion at certain times. But then we should find ways to rejuvenate. Do things differently, good things that make you happy, take time to relax, have good conversations.
And please do not leave out studying, meditating God’s words, pray for strength and trust Him to give you the strength you desire, strength to thrive. God is the giver of strength.