From the very second, my father knew my mother, You smiled at the obedience of my parents to procreate. You were proud of their submission to multiply, and increase the number of lights on the earth. As they gave you consent to mold me, you delighted in knitting the intricate parts of me. The union of your word and spirit over my life molded me, molded every single bone, and strand of hair on me. You were there at the core of the beginning of my existence, You were my beginning! It was your breathe I first inhaled & exhaled as I lay curled up in my mother's womb. And as I tossed from left to right trying to understand my terrain, your hands were on my body to groom. Slow & steady, therein, my life came to a full bloom. By the ninth month since the beginning of your beautiful work of art on me, I was ready to showcase & show off your glory to my parents, & All that cared to see. And that marked the end of that phase of my life, You sealed the end of that phase of my life. You were the Alpha & Omega of my initial birth. From there on, all you wanted to do, was adorn my life with all your beauty and riches. As I took my first step, my first stumble, first fall. You guided me. My first thought, instinct, my first sound, first cry You whispered to me to make them all. It was so joyful to take instructions from you. Every instruction whispered in my ear, brought delight to my soul and I would giggle at every sound of it. My parents had no idea the beautiful interaction, that was going on between you and me. All they could see were my joyful giggles. Regardless, it melted their hearts. Oh! what joy the world would have known, If I had continued on that path. If I had allowed you to keep writing the story of my life Only If I had allowed you to keep being the Alpha & Omega of every phase & season of my life. Thirteen years into my life, I veered off listening to your beautiful whispers, I ventured into listening to the whispers of the world around me. What a disastrous mistake! Although, I was unperturbed about you being the beginning and the end of the chapters of my life, You still chased after me with your unending love. The same love you had for me as you knitted and molded me together. My reckless abandon and disregard of you never changed your love for me. It remained ever sure, ever flowing from the cross, where you poured it all out, even before my beginning. Yet again, you were the beginning and the end of my second birth. Now, again and again, over and over, I give you every chapter of my life to Alpha & Omega. Although, with sprinkles of pain, Beautiful pain, I may say. Five years since my second birth, You have begun and ended every phase, every season, every chapter of my life with so much splendor and grandeur. You show me things of old, And things to come. For these I am more than sure, that you held my yesterday, and you know my end. I am sure that you plan for my end, to be even more glorious than my beginning. And so, I put my life in your hands, take absolute control of every beginning and end, of every detail of my life, till the very end of time, Amen.
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